I have a monster living inside my belly. It has scaled brown-with-mud
paws with bits of shimmery green that’s able to catch the light every now and
again through my windpipe as I open my mouth wide enough. It slits open these
nooks inside of me. A small, nearly 5 mm notch a day. Blood seeps through these
notches, trickling down like the tears of the woman weeping on the moon as she
spins day in and out. It’s not the usual crimson, fresh and cascading blood
that you usually see when humans bleed. It’s more of a rose madder tone with a
tinge of purple to it as if some purple bougainvillea has been crushed to form
a thick yet crunchy paste and added to it.
The monster flickers out its snake-like tongue every once in
a while, to lick at the blood forming a thick, enamel pool at its feet. Licking
it enough to just get a slight taste of it that might make him survive through
the day as he tried to savour it through its taste buds.
It visited me every night in my dreams. I would usually
forget the contents of the dream itself though would remember the vivid surreal
surroundings and description of the monster itself.
If I remember correctly, in my nocturnal world, I am close
friends with it, but if so is the case, then why does it gnaw and scathe at my
insides like it does. This thought leaves me completely baffled making my head
spin like a child’s top on a floor with psychedelic patterns in neon colours.
I wake up to find myself hanging loosely like a string
puppet, from suspending ropes, in a room filled with mirrors of all shapes and sizes
as well as all deforming proportions. My wooden feet are nailed to the ground
holding my body still as my head spins round and round crazily as if I’m a key
at the back of a walking circus doll.
Your writing is so profound, I love it.
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